Sunday, March 11, 2012

.....here's to tomorrow.....

....it's definitely been one of those days when I have not been at my finest.....blame it on today's early morning time change, the last week of having sick babes up all night or the fact that my husband had to spend the entire day at the office, but I said out loud to myself this afternoon that I am the worst Mom on the planet.....

....I yelled, I nagged, I disciplined, I apologized......Brody cried and then cried some more......the girls tattled, then argued again..... I snapped, they whined, they complained, they cried, they apologized......it was an entire afternoon of one snowball effect of negativity......I'll spare all the details, but it was not a good day.......

....then at dinnertime, Stefan walked in the door and I gave him my I've had it look and waved myself off for some alone time....or as alone as you can get when you live in 1100 square feet with 4 other people......but I was able to regroup.....

....and I quickly forgave myself and chalked it up to they can't all be festive and fun......we all have the bad ones.....we all need them, in order to appreciate the sweet and savory ones.....so I shook it off.....

.....and when shaking it off, I over heard three giggling babes in the tub while Daddy scrubbed them clean.....they certainly weren't still thinking about our day, giving me even more reason to let it go.....they were in the moment and loving every minute of it......and that gave me reassurance that they do forgive and forget effortlessly.....at least at this age.....

......our littles learn to apologize when we, as parents, have the chance to say I am sorry I lost my cool, I didn't mean to raise my voice, and also discuss the reasons why we love one another, trust and obey and pitch in as a family......all good discussions that sometimes need to be initiated because we made mistakes.....

.....so we closed out our day with a quick celebration of 11 months of pure bliss.......


.....minus all of his crying today.....

......and I celebrated watching my two angels sleep knowing that tomorrow will be a lovely day.......



.....a bright, spring day ready to celebrate Stefan's 30 something years...... and that deserves fun and festivity.....