Wednesday, April 27, 2011

.....dear Brody.....

.....Dear Brody,
.....I feel my throat tightening as I simply type the words dear Brody......I want to capture our first two weeks together because they have been wonderful, but I know I won't be able to articulate exactly how I feel about you.....words can't possibly capture the pureness of getting to know you, learning your unique sounds and whimpers, describing the way you rest your head against me when I cradle you.....it's all been so surreal and your presence has added more joy and love to our home than I ever thought possible.....
.......my hope is that when you read this in years to come, you might capture a fraction of the emotion that stirs in my heart for you.....


.....your birth was very serene....it was very calm......I remember thinking so many times......oh, I can not wait to meet this baby.....the preparation of the birth passed by like a movie in slow motion and I studied every frame so I would not forget any of it.......however, when it was time to meet you and the Dr. changed into his scrubs, it all happened quickly.....you were placed in my arms after just a few minutes and immediately I knew that your demeanor was sweet, charming and relaxed; just like your Daddy.....




.....and you look just like him, making the similarities in presence even sweeter.....you are like two peas in a pod.....

....your sisters adore you.....we constantly keep watch over the amount of love they give you.....smothering you with hugs and kisses, piling your swing with toys, resting next to you on the couch, covering half of your tiny body with their toddler limbs that douse you with attention......




.....each sister enthusiastic about their new role, big and biggest sister....loving every minute when they have you to themselves......



.....and as for me?.....I cherish our late night feedings.....I will happily forgo sleep as long as I have this precious time with you in these first few weeks.....it's my opportunity when I can silently study your face as I rock you by candle light in our room; where all of your sweet, tiny newborn features are highlighted by the soft glow.....Daddy breathing heavy as he sleeps.....and it's just the three of us......and these hours in the night and early morning are my favorite because you have my undivided attention and I have yours.....and in a blink of an eye this newborn phase will be over, so I want to inhale all of the precious moments with you.....


.....and although I love all of my children without expecting anything in return, it's your long sighs as you cradle into my neck and deep breathes as you nurse that give me back more than I could ever ask for.....because we have bonded so quickly and I am fueled by this overpowering love that I now understand happens between a mother and son.....







.....you are our gift from God and I am truly blessed to raise you.....I look forward to the abundant hours ahead of us to learn about one another and for our family to continue to settle in as a party of five.....
.....and I will strive to spend quality time with each of you so that the three of you know you have your unique place in our family.....


......and there will be good days ahead.....


.....and tough days ahead.....


......but I promise to love you intensely.....I vow to raise you in a loving and compassionate home that buzzes with blessed chaos.....I will make a lot of mistakes, but I will learn from them.....I will try new things, expose you to different parts of this great place we live, and surround you with friends and family who will adore you for the gifts that God has given you.....


......you are our sweet blessing and my heart overflows with gratefulness.....

.....Love always and forever,
     Momma

4 comments :

Sara B said...

Beautiful. If these were real pages, they'd be wet with tears.

Davian said...

I don't tell you often enough how lucky I am to have your example at such close range. You captured this moment so beautifully, as always.

Amy said...

He is precious!!! Your post was beautiful and your children will treasure your words on this blog one day when they can look back and read it.

Amanda said...

My heart is overflowing with joy!!! Thank you for sharing from your heart. You are a truly beautiful person. XOXO