Monday, May 13, 2013

....glimpse of light.....

.....it has been an emotional week in our household.....all good blessings to count, but add in hormones and a few unexpected surprises and it has taken a toll on my energy and stamina......but yesterday was a good day to inhale these three little beings and lovingly pat the one that is being perfectly created and woven together with each and every minute.......without the four of them, mothers day would not have been possible for me.....


.....I entered week 14 on Saturday and I finally feel like there is light at the end of the queasy and exhausted tunnel I have been traveling......as mommas, I think most of us would agree that each pregnancy seems to get tougher.....maybe it is because we are older than the one prior......maybe it is because we have more to take care of as each birth provides another human that needs everything from us......but I will say, this pregnancy has knocked me flat on my back.....I have not picked up the camera, cooked a good meal, written a good blog post, or stayed up past 9 pm in three months......actually, if it wasn't for Stefan and my babysitter who helps me on Wednesdays, I would not have washed any clothes or made my bed, either......

....I have no extra energy for anything......

.....add a little bit of life to that equation, plus three kids and a husband......and you have yourself one momma who is barely holding on........

.....but, I do see the light......


.....and in between the seltzer swigs and the daze I walk through, I catch moments that remind me it is all a quick glimpse in the grand scheme of things......first trimester days fall away fast and we forget how tough they are.......if we didn't, each of us would only have one baby......

.....my children have picked up for me, intuitively knowing they were needed to step in......


......and small moments of activity have been cherished......

.....coloring has been an easy activity, just as laying down on the floor so I can be the patient for "doctor" or siting in a chair with my eyes closed while we play "salon" and the kids brush my hair......


.....I feel like it was only yesterday when I ate a full box of saltines each morning at my work desk, hiding them in a drawer; trying to keep the nausea a secret from my colleagues.....and that baby is thriving......she's on the brink of kindergarten and is just as close to being a tweener as she is from when she was a newborn.....



.....and when the emotional ups and downs of life have surfaced this week, I have thought so many times that these too will be a few of the many, many experiences that chalk up to life......several things that have scared me in the past have turned out to be okay, a blessing even.......just as many things that have been joyful have been far greater and more beautiful that I could ever have imagined......

.....with each season, we get wiser; as we have more experiences to draw upon and more hope to carry us, regardless of where each of our sources of faith stem from......

.....the seasons turn fast......but for this one that we are currently in the midst of, I know that our family will bloom.....


.....hope your Mother's Day was lovely.......

5 comments :

Stephanie said...

Happy Mother's Day to one of the very best!! Dig deep, sister. Almost half way! :) Praying for you and itty bitty every day. xoxo

Camille DiPaola said...

How true...good for you for seeing the good during the those hard days of pregnancy. It can be so tough when you feel like crawling into bed, crying...and repeat.

:) Thanks for sharing!

Cheers.

Tracy Balderach said...

Thanks for the encouragement, Camille!!!!

Davian said...

I hear you, mama. Happy Mothers Day! You are one of the most positive, patient, loving mothers I know. Miss you!

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