Wednesday, January 18, 2012

....inner monologue....

.....there is no point to this post....it's just as the title describes.....a jumbled collection of my thoughts this evening all weaved in between some mediocre photos and some fantastic ones from the best photographer I know......so, let's get started, shall we?.....

...there are some tough days that go with raising babies......days when I feel like the maid, the chef, the project coordinator, the taxi, the social chairman, the snack distributer and the groomer.....but I still wouldn't trade the experience of catering to my little people 24/7......


....and there are days when I know I've done a really good job.....I am patient, affectionate, slow to anger, creative in negotiating pleasing situations; and can do it all while still being a fun and frivolous Momma that brings giggles to my three throughout the day.....I like this Momma.......she is who I wish I could be everyday and she sure is lighthearted and spirited.....

.....and then there are days like one I had over the weekend.....I woke up full of anxiety....I was quick to snap, terse at times.....impatient, quick to anger, easily agitated, raised my voice louder than I wanted to and it was my way or no way.......I wasn't in the mood to negotiate any solutions with the girls except the one I wanted.....so on days like that, sometimes I need to grab my babies and get out of the house.....it takes me away from the stresses of build up I may have going on and the fresh air, sunshine and an adventure always help my perspective.....

....so while the boys stayed back, the girls and I lurched out into the 16 degree day and made a trip to Michaels....and as soon as I heard Callie announce that awr shadows awr taller than allllll uf us, Momma, I knew I had it in me to change from the un-yeilding Momma to the light hearted one I love to be.......


....perspective.....

.....don't let the stresses of life build so high you can't see yourself from under your own shadows.....

....lessons are always being taught and learned around here.....

....moving on.....

....I've talked about all or nothing in our home, at least for now as we are living urban style......we either all go out or we all stay in......there is no in between.....and because it takes some give and take, Brody skips his afternoon nap on Thursdays so the girls can run around our playroom with their besties for our weekly music class.......


....and brother has enjoyed trying to assert himself with the big kids for his own version of fun.....





....and as much as the girls like to hold him and treat him as the baby he is, he loves his freedom.....


.....he'll cuddle for a moment and then he is off in a New York minute....




....they don't stay little for long....it was just yesterday that my dear friend was capturing the sweet sighs and whimpers of my precious newborn.....and now she's preparing for a newborn of her own.....


....all the while we have been savoring the one that just joined us 6 weeks ago.....



.....soon these babies will be running wild and free with their siblings and friends.....








....and as some of us start to depart this NYC building experience of happily ever after, I know one thing that will remain true.......we will always remain friends.....

....always....


.....and we will always celebrate babies.....


.....Stefan made a comment the other day that in a few months, he will be really sad that we won't have a baby in the house.....as Brody moves closer to one, his personality is starting to shine.....he is social, interactive, attention seeking, he loves his big sisters and he is very affectionate.....God knew what he was doing when he created the bond between a mother and a son....it's indescribable, but my daily prayer of thanksgiving is that I was chosen to experience the gift of having a son.....


....brother loves his special friend.....

....and Elsie loves to be the biggest sister of the house.....

.....I left the kitchen to start bath time while Brody played with his left over food and I snuck up on this.....


....Snow White and her little dwarf....


....was there a dwarf named Sloppy?....


....messy or not, Elsie was proud of her caregiving skills and I am proud of her compassion and interest in serving other people.....


....signing off to go join my littles in dreamland.....sleep always helps me wake up as lighthearted Momma and when that happens, it sets the tone for a good day.....


....and by the way, Callie has proclaimed every night that she is bery sad that Christmas is over, so in keeping up with the holiday spirit, I found her asleep with her pink Santa hat nestled snuggly on her head.....

....the Christmas letdown certainly begins at an early age....I am sad Christmas is over too, baby.....keep the spirit alive all year long.....xoxo



7 comments :

TyKes Mom said...

These pictures are beautiful. I know what you mean about the stresses building up. I have had days that I just need to step outside for a moment and breathe in order to reorder my mind and put everything into perspective. Parenting is definitely a trying occupation.

Cheryl@OntheOldPath said...

Beautiful pictures, I don't think there is a more wonderful journey than being a parent, sometimes we are stretched almost beyond our limits and then other times we feel like we are going to burst with the joys these dear little ones bring, I enjoyed reading your reflections!

Carla Karam said...

You have an absolutely beautiful family!! and beautiful pictures!! Blessings. I think there is a little maid, chauffeur, project coordinator, judge and jury in all of us!! Blessings!

Michelle said...

After all of that beautiful post with the lovely friends and gorgeous pictures of the fun times, I have one question that is totally off the subject. . . does that babydoll have red marker all over her? Man! That looks familiar. ;) Jaycee can not keep her crayons/markers/paints off of anything. Your daughter and Jaycee seem to be kindred spirits. Is she not also the one whose natural talent was gymnastics?

Tracy Balderach said...

Yes, Michelle- it is marker and yes, Callie is the one who loves gymnastics. She is a wild spirit and she adds an element of light heartedness to our home. And Carla, good point- I forgot to add judge to the list.....aren't we always helping to mediate as parents, too? Thanks for stopping by everyone!

Anne Mercado said...

You're children are gorgeous! And I hear ya, there are days when I feel like I'm a good parent and days when I feel like the worst mom on the planet. What's important is that I try my best all the time.

Joanne/Winelady Cooks said...

great post and terrific photos. sometimes nothing is more important than something.

(came from voiceboks)

All the best,
Joanne