…..hello beloved blog…..
…..we have not even been home from a week at Disney World for 48 hours…..I am still swimming in laundry made by 6 people and tripping over suitcases…….usually, this type of unorderly chaos would stress me out, but I am full of gratitude and peace tonight……
…..there are a lot of sad stories out there right now…….friends who have babies in jeopardy, missing children, and babes who have had horrible accidents……I have held my children close to me the past two days……we have skipped chores to watch videos of Brody when he was a baby, Stefan and I have cooked good meals when we don't have time this week to really be in the kitchen, I have neglected paying bills to sit with Elsie on the piano and it has been lovely to be free of the anxiety of having an orderly home….I am working on the balance of it all and it isn't a straight line progression, but I am making progress…...
……Mae and I went to NYC yesterday for a few hours to visit with Judith, one of the most godly women I know…….she is here visiting from Australia and last time she was here, I was days away from delivering Mae……our visit filled my love cup, as Judith is one of the women in my life I look up to the most……her face radiates joy and grace and I love her dearly…..
…..today I spent three hours with Callie on her field trip…….it meant so much to her to have me there……I knew this by the way she looked at me, the way she held my hand and the way her eyes welled up with relief when I was the last one to board the bus……"I was so scared you were going to miss the bus, mama. I am so glad you made it……"
…..I wiped one little tear that fell through her smile….. today I was exactly where I needed to be…….not folding laundry, not paying bills, not unloading suitcases…...
…..in times when I am feeling overwhelmed, the best thing for me is to leave the markers of stress and spend time with the ones I love……it cures me every time…..
…..Callie and Stefan are already in dreamland in our bed and I don't want to miss out…..
……grateful. aware. savoring…...
